First, I would like to thank to God for the live He's given to me...



But, however, sometimes like being so uneasy, too hard, too mess, and I was just like...


 
And in many times, I used to pretend that I'm okay even when I'm really not...



That's why, sometimes I do something stupid...


And I used to say something stupid, that somehow, can make me feel better...
Then I would just like...



And there's come lonely times, that make me starting of thinking, waiting, missing for... I don't even know what is...



Then I realized, I need someone. Not a perfect one. But someone who will listen and care about me. Someone who will need me, too...



And one day, someone came along...
He just dazzling me with who he is, purely...
He didn't even try but he's stolen my heart...
And I don't think I could say this to him...



I just wish, he would understand without I'm saying this...



I've tried to know him well...
Trying hard to close with him...
But at the end...
I did that for nothing...
No matter what I did, I still am a stranger for him...


 
However, I realize, that these whole time, all the times I used to wait for him was just useless, and mean nothing...
He will never know, and he will never come...



 Then, I'm back to my what so ever life...
Where no one know that I used to cry in every smile...
It was just like, you're screaming, and nobody hears you...



Rain will always be the memories about him, and me...
It will always be an untold story, about me who have been waiting for nothing...
No matter what, I used to love the rain...
Because when I'm in the rain, nobody notice that I'm crying...



But, although this story is not wonderful, not beautiful as a fairytale, I still thanked that I still stand by my own, at the end...
So I just have to be strong, and be myself...



And after all these times, I used to think on my own, look above at the sky...
God has a beautiful plan for us...
Then, I just have to keep believing, and keep waiting...


 
Did you ever notice, that happiness is always inside of us?
Don't let the world break you...
Be strong and keep believing...
Somehow, miracles is real...
Cause God always listen and understand...

With Love,
Just Me


Ps. Keep smile. You're beautiful, amazing, wonderful, and no one could be you. ;)

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